Tracy Chapman wrote a song called “Change” and the lyrics have been on my mind, so I would like to share it with you —
If you knew that you would die today
saw the face of God and love
would you change?
How bad, how good does it need to get?
How many losses, how much regret?
What chain reaction of cause and effect?
Makes you turn around
makes you try to explain
makes you forgive and forget
makes you change
makes you change…
Most of you are familiar with my story. There is nothing like a terminal disease to shake your boat and turn your world upside down! It makes you think about your priorities and believes and it definitely makes you question how you spend your time, because somehow time always catches up with us and life is shorter than we think.
I know it is a cliché, but if you could maybe just for a moment really try to imagine what it would be like if today was your last day, would you change? What would you stop doing right now and what would you rather do?
No one is getting out of this life alive! We all know it, yet some try to run from it, while others totally ignore the reality of it.
Someone once asked me what it is like to live with the sword of a terminal disease? Truth be told, I’m no different than you, we all have the same sword over our heads. Maybe I am the lucky one for realising it sooner than later?
If we don’t change, we don’t grow. If we don’t grow are we really living?
It reminds me of a little girl whose dad told her to sit down, but she wouldn’t, she just stood there and looked at him. Again he told her to sit down and again she just stood there. Finally the dad said — sit down or I’ll spank you! So she sat down, she looked at him and said — I just want you to know, I’m sitting down, but in my heart I’m standing up!
Now I’m not talking about that kind of attitude. Our Lord is working in our lives to change us and we need to be teachable! We need willing and eager hearts! We are lacking the urgency to do whatever it takes to grow!
I want to echo the prayer of Reinhold Niebuhr
God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference.
They say dead men speak, I believe long after we are gone, our lives will continue to tell a story. What story is your life going to tell?